Living through:”What’s the worst that can happen?”

Hurt I couldnt write this week, Messages to myself 1 Minute

I have been failing at life…failure to me is letting others beat me down so badly that I have lost the will to live.

Death is not the worst that can happen.

I no longer have my zest, my joy or my hopefulness. Instead I have anxiety attacks, heart palpitations and constant despair.

My mind continues to be plagued by…well everything. The pain in my body remains fixedly associated with the last place on earth I would ever want to be again. Yet its presence is global, like an ex who is a super-star…I just cant get away.

The inevitable is appearing as realistic expectations expected. I can’t get from my own accuracy at prediction.

Manifestation on hyperdrive?? How do I get the negativity to stop??

Living through peak nihilism…

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Published by More>than MyColor

Struggling, and working things through. Recovering from sexual assault, harassment and bullying in the workplace of an international organization. It takes time and this is part of my therapy. Hopefully sharing my truth can help me and maybe someone who needs to read this, it will help you too. You are not alone, and it's not your fault. POC, we aren't worth less. (Email function not yet up, sorry).

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