I’ve officially given up. I’ve surrendered to the colonizers what I’ve invested 5 years of schooling and 15 long years working towards. I’ve been in denial, mourning the loss for years now. Today I accept it.
The system is too large, the sexist players too monstrous and the racist gate keepers too imposing for my fragile health to cope. My joy has been stolen, my potential robbed.
I am heartbroken.
It depresses me deeply.
I’ve been really really sad.
But in leaving I take a stand.
I’m not a petting zoo…I’m not here for your amusement, I’m not alive for your entertainment, I’m not born for your exploitation.
I have worth.
And I will not be a willing participant in my dehumanization.